Completed My 1st 10K!!! Woot!

I finished my first 10K this morning.

1 hr and 32 min later I was done and didn't vomit.

I met my goal of staying under a 15 minute mile. And although I was the last one to finish the 10k, I was not the last one to cross the finish line. A 5k started 30 minutes after us so I was able to pass some elderly people, a few small children, and a girl on crutches (not kidding) as I finished. But I am done! Hopefully this will light the fire under my butt to get me to recommit to my training and get ready for the 1/2 marathon in February.

 

I am off to take a nap....and am hoping to regain the feeling in my thighs. :)

This Just In

The spicy chicken breast from chick fil a is just as spicy on the way up as it is on the way down.

You may now return to your regularly scheduled program.


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Free To Fly

Heading on my first flight since losing almost 80 lbs.

This sign no longer scares me.



With inches to spare!



Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

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The Definition of Insanity...

is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

As evidenced here and here.

and.....today makes the third installment. I know better....and one day I will learn. Apparently not today. Excuse me while I go PB.

Damn.

Hello My Name Is Sassy!

Been feeling a little sassy today.

Must be my new dress.

Or my new boots.

Or the fact that I haven't worn tall boots in 5 years!!!! Awesome NSV!

I can't wear all my tall boots yet and these took a little effort to zip but there is no "spillage" on the top so yay!

Oh! And when I put my arms down, there is space between my waist and arms. :)

And I would like to give a shout out to Spanx tights, without which this outfit would not have been possible.

Success

So I made it through without eating everything in Austin. I had two margaritas before the banquet and sipped on one of these during the dinner.



Yum!
Here a couple pics from the evening. The first one is in my hotel room and the second on demonstrates how out of control my hair is. It was blocking the face of the person next to me!

Who's That Girl?

Walked by a mirror in Target this morning and didn't recognize myself....and it felt really good.


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No Crying in Hair Salons!

So....I got my hair cut, and there were no tears. Yay! I didn't go as short as I was first imagining but baby steps are probably the safest way to go.

So 5 and 1/2 inches later.....

This was the final product. It is just like a mini version of my old haircut so I think that is why I am not freaking out. 

This was before.....

(it was actually a couple inches longer than this shot)

And here is another after....

Notice how my hair rests gently on my newly found COLLAR BONES!!!

Holla for the Colla(r)....bones. :)

I am headed to Austin tomorrow to accept an award for my school and then participate in some drinking on 6th street. I haven't had a drink in several months so send me some good vibes that I don't drink so much that I lose all common sense and eat all the chips and salsa in Austin. And for those of you who don't have an educator in your life, let me just inform you that we can DRINK! So watch out Austin, here we come!

PS - I sent my weight in to Kristen for the Holiday Challenge....did you?

Hair-apy

So I am thinking about cutting my hair. I have really had this need to do something drastic, make a big change, jump out of an airplane....something! I even considered going blond! (I have very dark brown hair and aside from the "purple" phase I went through in college, I have not veered from my natural color.)

Currently my hair is almost to the middle of my back. Long and straight and pretty much pulled up in a bun or ponytail most of the time...but here's the kicker. Every time I get my hair cut, even just a few inches, I cry. I am not quite sure why. It will grow back. It always does, but I get so upset.

I think I am afraid that I can't be pretty unless I have long hair. I won't be desirable to anyone unless I have long hair. People won't like me....unless I have long hair. Kind of goes along with my "no one will want me unless I am skinny" bullshit that I subscribe to.  It sounds asinine just typing it out. Part of me thinks I just need to cut it off as a symbolic gesture that I won't listen to the negative self talk anymore. I don't know what to do....help me ladies!!!

To cut or not to cut...that is the question.

URGENT: Refill Order #34531

Saw this in my inbox today:

Dear Valued Customer, (I definitely spent enough money to fall into the valued category)


It has come to our attention that it may be time to refill your previous order of Phentermine! We have a sale starting today. Save 10% off!


Yours truly,
Customer Service


Dear Customer Service,

I don't need you anymore. F@#k off!

Yours truly,
Valued Customer

The Half Way Curse

So I am still at the half way point. I know that what I am going through right now is totally mental. I have had some success and then I start to sabotage myself. I have stopped running (EEK! cue crazy magic carpet), I have not been eating well, and I had an unfill several weeks ago that has left me with the ability to eat many things that I shouldn't be eating. So the questions is why am I eating those things? I should be making good choices and then stopping at 1 cup or 6 oz of food....but I don't. Now, I am not gaining and I am not eating out of control like I have in the past but I am not making the kinds of choices that I should. I have an appointment tomorrow for a fill so that may help me as well....but I really don't want a big one....just like .1 or so.

I need to remind myself that this isn't about losing the weight fast (although that is fun) it is about losing it for good. So the slow periods are just something I am going to have get used to. Although I know that who I am is not defined by how much I weigh, it is hard to wrap my brain around. I need to work on my inner voice and stop beating myself up.

Everyday can be a fresh start. It is just harder said then done.

Everyone has gone through this right?

Waiting....

So I am on a retreat with some of my best girlfriends this weekend. Some of us arrived last night (me) and the rest will come in today. I am very excited because I could soooo use a break from work. However, it is currently 5:54 in the morning and I am WIDE AWAKE. I would like to go and get my run completed for the day, but we are in the middle of nowhere with gravel roads and no street lights so I don't think I will be headed out until the sun comes up.

ALSO, about an hour ago, I got a text from one of my friends who couldn't be here this weekend and her water broke and they are on the way to the hospital to have their second little guy, Noah. I am very excited for her but a little freaked out because she wasn't supposed to have that baby until later today with a scheduled c-section and I don't have my camera charged (and I can't find my charger). I am supposed to go up there later and do the first day pics and capture Jack's (older brother's) reaction when he first sees Noah.

And so I just sit here....waiting for the sun....waiting for Noah....and waiting for my friend Robin to wake up so I can borrow her charger....surely she brought hers!

As far as band related stuff goes, I am doing ok. I didn't lose any weight last week. Could have been the cake I had on Saturday....and Sunday. I am really trying to work my band at the restriction level that I have currently but it is getting to be pretty difficult. I did end up getting an unfill a few weeks back because I really was too tight but now....I don't know. I am scheduled for next Wednesday so I will really pay attention to portion size and protein and see how I feel. I know I am looser because I can eat bread and I haven't been able to do that for months. I have started going to carbs now because I can (and I LOVE them) and they don't keep me full as long as protein does. So....sticking to proteins to see if I still have a lot of hunger or if I am just eating the wrong foods.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!!!!! Friday has never looked so good.

A Picture is Worth A Thousand Words

This about sums up my week...

and it is only Tuesday.

Anyone else????