Tomorrow is another day...

and thank God that it is. Because if I repeated today, I would probably gain back all of my weight within a week. Ugh.

I just ate five several pieces of pizza. Why is it that I can't eat a piece of bread without getting stuck but I can shove five several pieces of pizza down my throat without a second thought?!?! WHY? I guess maybe I should try to figure out what made me buy the pizza in the first place. Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow I will be better. This is just a small moment in the journey. I just hate the guilt...and will probably hate the scale in the morning. Oh well. Better go to sleep before I eat something else...blah.

I am having an affair...

wtih another scale. There is a scale in the clinic which is right around the corner from my office (I work in an elementary school.) And every morning when I come in, I get on this scale and weigh in. And every morning this scale gives me something that my scale at home cannot....a 2 lb weight loss. This is my second weigh in for the day because of course I get up EVERY morning and weigh myself first thing, but I have to do it again when I get to work. I know that these pounds are not real but it feels good to do it. It is like a preview of the future right?

Dang....what happened???

I had such good intentions!!! But now 5 months later I am finally writing my 2nd post. Ugh. I hope I am more successful at losing this weight than maintaining my blog. :) So a lot has happened these last 4 1/2 months. I have had two fills and lost about 30 lbs. Things have been...different. I am really getting to know my band and have been flirting with restriction but have not found my sweet spot. It is funny how it can vary from day to day. For the most part though I have been doing pretty good. Tomorrow I plan on starting the 30 day shred so I will be keeping track here so I can keep myself accountable. I do have a picture to share that I took tonight. It is pretty depressing that this is me 44 lbs down...but being fully open and out there is going to keep me from coming back to this place. So here it goes!!!