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Hello all!
 I have been super busy with a couple of work related things and blogging has had to take a back seat. So here is a snapshot of what has been going on in my head.

I have really been working through what good restriction is for me. I am at 5.25 ccs. When I had the band slip I was a 7 ccs. I am trying to evaluate if I need another fill or not. I believe that the band is there to play a supportive role but I really have to do most of the work by making good choices in what and how much I eat. When I was at 7 ccs my band dictated what I ate. I avoided certain foods and started relying on sliders and liquids/mushies.

At 5.25, I am more in control of what I can eat. I have more choices which is good and bad. Now, when I eat, I can feel pressure when I get full, but if I want to keep eating, I can. I liked the strictness of when I was at my tightest but was that really letting me do the hard work on changing bad habits? By not having to make the choice to have a second helping (which I can do right now if I eat slowly enough) was I missing out on a key piece of behavior change that I think I really need to address in order to have long term success? I know I couldn't live forever being as tight as I was...

I just don't know. I guess almost one year out (It will be a year on April 12! Holy Cow!) I still don't have this whole thing figured out. Not having restriction for the month of January and part of February was a real eye opener. I was SHOCKED at how fast some of my bad habits returned. Proof that I need the support of the band, but I know now more than ever that it really all comes down to me, and the choices that I make on a daily and sometimes hourly basis.

Well, enough of the heavy....here's some other stuff that's been going on.

A few weeks ago I finally cashed in a Groupon that I bought as my "reward" for meeting my half way goal. I got sclerotherapy on the veins in my legs and had to wear these really sexy support hose for a week. I even wore my grannie shoes so that between the pants and the shoes, you couldn't see the tops of my feet. Hopefully I will see some results as this is something I have wanted to do for a long time!

 Don't be jealous....I know I'm sexy. Sure do wish I was that tan. :)

I started boot camp last week and have been having a GREAT time! It is really hard but I was just really proud that I could do almost all of the exercises. I was not too happy with the gain on the scale that came from starting to strength train, but I had prepared myself for that possibility.



This is me before heading out to a birthday party this weekend. I liked my outfit so I took a picture.



...and these are my new birthday shoes!!!! I can't wait to wear them and just wanted to post a pic.

The deadline for my birthday goal is quickly approaching. I wanted to be 213 by this Thursday and this morning I was at 215.5. Is it possible to make it? Maybe, but I started my (.) today and am afraid that I tend to gain the first couple of days so maybe not. Either way, I will keep plugging along. The scale has been super slow lately which can be really depressing, but I will just live through all of your successes until I have some of my own to post about!



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